I cannot tell you how many times I have said what I was going to do and I did not see it through. Distractions always stopped me. I always went into “someone else” mode and forgot all about the commitments I planned for myself. Later I would look up and wonder what happened. I would immediately blame “life” or someone other than myself.
The truth is I was NOT aware of how to tune into what I really needed. I allowed myself to make external/temporary plans depending on my mood at a particular moment. I was only feeling the “in the moment” emotions.
Currently, I examine the internal reasons why things happen and I seek a remedy for a permanent life changing answer. I am more equipped to stay loyal to the decisions that I choose because I step “outside my box” instead of making a quick fix decision.
I am loyal to the process of “GROWTH”.
Nothing is more satisfying than growing the heck up.